I wish my heart wasn’t so big, that I wouldn’t always try to see the good in everybody. I always end up hurt. I’m starting to think it’s time to focus on myself and do things for myself. It’s hard when you have so much love to give. Having a big heart isn’t always the best thing. Time for a HUGE change. <3

I found my birth mom, she is dead. But I found her family. and 2 real brothers, I talked to them both for like 2 hours, I learned a lot. They said they wanted to meet me, so I was like yeah, for sure! I didn’t really think they were being serious about it, and well guess what I’m leaving to go visit them haha. I’m nervous I don’t know what to expect. Life has been so crazy lately. I’ve realized now more than ever, that family is the most important. And damn am I lucky to have such an amazing family I definitely got blessed with such amazing parents and siblings. Dylan and I are trying to work things out and so far it’s actually going pretty good. I just hope it lasts. Haha. Sometimes I miss that one boy, I catch myself thinking about him…wondering what went wrong, everything seemed just fine, I miss having him to turn to when things got rough, he always said he wanted to go find my real family with me, well obviously that isn’t happening. =/. Gahhh.